Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Love - Vulnerability


“To share your weakness is to make yourself vulnerable; to make yourself vulnerable is to show your strength.”



It takes courage to speak from the heart, sharing the most honest expression in pure, raw form. It takes confidence - a knowing that the emotions felt are true and sincere. It takes love of one's self and those around. It takes a strong commitment to greatness and the achievement of all things deserved. 


“Vulnerability is the only authentic state. Being vulnerable means being open, for wounding, but also for pleasure. Being open to the wounds of life means also being open to the bounty and beauty. Don’t mask or deny your vulnerability; it is your greatest asset."


It doesn't come easy, this act of full exposure. Some feel weak. Some feel unprotected. The receiver's reaction, never guaranteed. But it is a gift to be vulnerable - a gift to yourself and a gift to others. It has the power to elevate, to soothe the heart, feed the soul and create tremendous bonds. 


“When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability...To be alive is to be vulnerable.”


What's the alternative? To be closed off? To lack emotion and feeling? To walk around disconnected? To be stingy with praise and love? To live in solitude? To miss out on intimate connection? To experience only a portion of what life has to offer? 


I choose vulnerability - the sharing of my authentic self without hesitation. I've seen the possibilities it creates, the smiles it receives, the strength it cultivates, and the fulfillment it provides. 










Embrace - Thirty



The confetti has settled. The party's packed up. 30 here I am. 


Mom and Dad are back in Chicago. Decorations and flare stored for birthdays to come. A headache lingers and my body is stiff - a fabulous reminder of the week's indulgences and rules gone out the window.  Fancy balloons are beginning to lose their luster in the corner of my living room. Greeting cards canvasing the kitchen counter. A fridge full of treats. Photos strewn about.


What a wonderful birthday! What a wonderful celebration! A great way to welcome a new decade, a new chapter, a new phase in my life. One (I've been told over and over) that will surely be filled with endless amounts of satisfaction, confidence, enjoyment, contentment, beauty and bliss. 


I believe it. 


I welcome my thirties. I have honest faith they will be filled with all things I've been waiting so patiently for -  a fulfilling career, a cherished partnership, babies to raise, peace and stability, increased self love, and beautiful relationships. 


It's wild to look back at 18...21...25 and recall what I thought my life would be like when I hit 30. I never imagined this - single, living in Santa Monica, working at a restaurant, opening a spinning studio, writing a book, and loving life despite its distance from traditionalism. 


...but that's because I had no idea what was possible for me. Now I know. Now I'm excited!


30 here I am!





Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Imagine - The Next Chapter

I had a sense of aloneness that ached for company, feelings that needed to be expressed, and an unsettled heart yearning for peace. 

So I wrote. 

I acknowledged. I felt. I shared. I received. I healed. 

Today, I have a sense of gratitude that can't be contained, feelings that are shared without hesitation, and a heart that flutters more than I can remember. 

I've let go of the pain that I once couldn't shake. I've accepted what and who will be. I've embraced my life for all that it is in this moment. And I've grown excited for the unknown. 

I got complete, giving myself permission to move forward with grace and ease. 

"You can't start the next chapter if you keep re-reading the last one."